Week One of A Series in May: Recognizing His Ways

Have you ever wondered about God? Is He real? If so, what is He like? Who is He, truly? If you're like me, you have had seasons in your life wherein you ponder the questions more often or more deeply than usual. 

I am approaching the month of May in such a season. Lately, I've been asking God for answers to the question, "Who are You?" and following it with a statement of longing, "Because I want to worship You, not My Idea of You." 

I know He is okay with my asking. Otherwise He wouldn't have inspired a psalmist to write things like "I pour out my soul in me..." and "...Oh people, pour out your hearts before Him." I've decided to accept this invitation by blogging some of my soul's "outpouring" during the month of May. Following are daily impressions from the first week, accompanied by photos of things in spring that have The Creator's signature on them. 

Day One: 

When I said hello to the white-haired woman sitting in a wheelchair at Lorene Weber's funeral, she spoke my name. A lady from Lorene's community who has had connection with the Webers' church family over the years, she remembered me from the few times we've met and have had brief conversations at Glad Tidings Church over the years. I hadn't seen her for ages, which is why I was astounded at her memory of my name as well as her knowledge of my twin and triplet grandchildren. She knew that our daughter with twin girls had very similar experiences as Lorene's granddaughter Amberly had with her twin girls. She also knew that one of our granddaughters is named Piper (the girl triplet), because she recalled hearing it matches the name of Amberly's one twin. I was amazed that, out of all the people whom she's likely encountered over the past couple decades, she would mark me as someone to remember and make associations with, even though our interactions have been so few and brief.

Today, I caught a glimpse of God when Mrs. White said, "Hello, Danette". 

He knows my name.

Day Two:

This morning, I got the idea to blog about seeking God in the month of May. I started crying when typed the above question and statement, "Who are You?" and "I want to worship You, not My Idea of You.", because in that exact moment I knew God heard me.

"You've come to the right place, Daughter," He seemed to say. "It brings Me great delight to show you who I am. Start looking for the ways."

Today, I caught a glimpse of God when I started this blog post. 

He hears the heart of His children.

Day Three:

Twenty-nine years ago today, we said goodbye to Mom-Eva. Her cancer got to be too much for her earthly body, and Jesus called her Home. It was a relief to know that her suffering was over, and a joy to think of her living in the presence of her Lord, but it was also a grief to part with someone so greatly loved. I don't miss her as often or as poignantly as I used to, but the pain of loss can still sneak up on me and surprise me with its depth. 

Today, I caught a glimpse of God when Ken gave me an extra long and tight hug since I might still be missing Mom-Eva after all these years.

His comfort is enduring. 

Day Four:

These days, I'm using the Audible app on my phone to listen to a gripping and sometimes heart-wrenching story that alternates between the lives of a grandmother and her granddaughter. When it's the grandma's turn, she recalls her experiences as a Polish girl in her late teens during World War II. She's the youngest in her family, and her parents do their best to shield her from the atrocities that occur during the German occupation in their community. As they emphasize the certainty that she can trust in them to look out for her, they say things like "When you need to worry, Father and I will tell you to worry", and "When you need to be concerned, I will tell you." 

 

I wonder if my Father would like to point that out to me sometimes, too, when I'm uptight about things that are out of my control, or even when things are in my control but I don't like the outcome because of the way I've handled them. When the fear of failure or the fear of the unknown is weighing me down, I wonder if "Fear not" and "Be anxious for nothing" is His way of saying, "Trust me, I will tell you when you need to begin worrying." 

Today, I caught a glimpse of God when I listened to my audio book.

He is completely trustworthy. 

Day Five:

Two local choirs collaborated to bring a delightful program to our community this weekend: Heart Cry Ensemble (of which our daughter is a member) and Menno Singers (a group that Ken & I had the privilege to join - along with many others - in singing Messiah last December). Their music stirred me, uplifted me, grounded me, shored me up, and solidified my belief that "My God is a Rock". He is ever near, He is there when I can't see or feel or hear Him, He is still with me after I wake - either here or in heaven - and He is the Place to anchor my soul.

Today, I caught a glimpse of God through the choirs' messages in song.

He reveals Himself through music.

Day Six: 

My heart constricted when I found the tiny, naked robin nestling. It lay on the ground in my flowerbed amid a wreckage of broken birdie bodies and bits of blue eggshell, not far from its cozy home still perched on the underbeams of our deck. Mama robin feathers littered the area, testament to fierce struggle against a predator (unknown to me, but immediately within the range of my known anger!) How I wanted to save that little bird when I saw its featherless chest still heaving slightly, bravely. I went into the house and got a serving spoon from the kitchen drawer with which to scoop up the baby and gently place it back into the nest, hoping against hope that the remaining parent bird would find it and care for it in a life-restoring way. (It didn't)

Today, I caught a glimpse of God when I wanted to save a helpless creature. (I couldn't)

He wants to rescue. (He can and He does)

Day Seven: 

This afternoon, I walked with my elderly friend "Debbie" on our favorite trail. Typically, we see some wildlife as we stroll the tree-lined path between a river and narrow, man-made canal, but this time we saw an abundance of flowers, birds and woodland creatures. I guess because it's springtime, they were going about their business in greater number and intensity:

gray squirrels and their red and black cousins scampering, scavenging

cardinals trilling their pretty, pretty, pretty bird! call

snapping turtles sunning in the mud, then lunging into the water

chickadees flighty and hopeful, asking for a sunflower seed handout

violets, purple or yellow, their dainty stems waving banners of good cheer

mallard drakes paddling regally upstream

red-headed woodpecker hammering at dead wood, stocking or depleting its insect larder

trilliums dressed in classy white, living up to their status as Ontario's official floral emblem 

chipmunks skittering and scolding, or striking the dearest pose while reaching for a bramble bloom

blue jays, beautiful and bossy, jaying without ceasing (it seemed like)

frogs, bug-eyed and throat-bulged at water's edge, stolidly regarding passersby 

Today, I caught a glimpse of God along the Mill Race Trail. 

His springtime Creation teems with life.

What ways of God have you recognized lately?